i am so tired now.
dont know what to do.
1 whole month that i wont be able to see you.
i dont know how i am supposed to act.
i want to tell you.
but im scared that when you know it.
you wouldnt be so open and act freely around me.
i dont want that.
so i have decided that a one way love is better.
there wont be any troubles etc.
so i will deny everything.
only i know the truth.
the rest would just be pure speculation.
i think you suspect something.
but both of us are just keeping quiet.
pretending we do not know anything.
i think that this way i much better.
i can secretly admire you.
and you wouldnt be uneasy around me.
its the best way.
hopefully......
I Love You...