this is reali getting outta hand. i reali cant decide and make up my mind. should i or should i not. why why why. its always why. all these whys and no answer to it at all. maybe theres an answer out there. jus waiting for me to reach out my hand and pluck it. but now everything resides in me. do i dare reach out? because its jus so phenomenical. something new was jus created. cant explain. forget it
i kinda like this phrase i heard, get in or get lost. haha.kinda rude. but it has meaning to it. actually it speaks alot in this 5 words. hmm.profound. not my type. so im jus running frm place to place. tryin to settle some things here and there. can i take my life slowly, one pace at a time. can i relearn how to walk?. cos im running now. with things passing so fast theres no time just to appreciate and take a good look ard even though u're aware that everythings changing so fast without waiting for you. all you can do is just turn your head back and mayb catch a glimpse of wad it used to be. even then, a glimpse is but a mere blurred image. where all you can see are just horizontal lights beside you as u carry on running. you know u're out of breath. but u still countinue running in a hope that u can jus leave everything behind. looking down staring at the steps u take. its starting to look mundane and repeatitive. in front is a future too uncertain to see. ground is all u can gaze at. carefully pacing ur steps as u go. you sense theres the danger in u getting stuck either too ahead or too left behind in time. but u continue to run nonetheless. to a future thats bleak. takin a smile to urself. u tell urself it could hav been worse. but reali.could it??
that pretty much describes me inside..
took this personality profile thingy. dunoe wad to say abt it. im like all of them. D.I.S.C. yup..basically 4 types and im all of em. how fucked up can this get. but it reli made me think of wad i am reali and how i want to live out the rest of my supposetly happy and carefree teenage years. the education system sure doesnt allow it eh. well. we're jus condemned to live it out.. =)
