well.a new beginin i guess. my whole freaking bosy's achin all over. n i am not gettin any slp. cos well obviously im here bloggin. im getting my results in abt 11 hrs time. so good luck to me. hopefully i am able to be promoted.
today's trainin was mad. cos of the haze we had gym trainin. carried weights. did machines n ran on the threadmill like a stupid hamster. now i wanna jus cut ecery piece of meat off me. its so achin to the bone. thn as we walked to the mrt station. crapped loads abt muhds and their actions. abit racist no doubt but who cares. thn talked abt how we dun click with our classes etc. and how dull they are la. anyway i guess i like my hockey team. or rather the ones i hang out with more.
i find sch nt desiring at all. theres no wanting to go sch. cos i know was in for me. i am like: 'fuck.another day with ppl who hav totally no life. all they see are books' NOT FUN N EXCITIN at all. ac's nice. but i guess im in the wrong class. seriously i dun belong there. its nt their fault la. its jus that some people jus cannot go together. the jokes i tell. they giv me that totally f'ed up look. like when they say dunoe wad their mom fetches them home everyday.i say smth like i go home in a merce.sometimes volvo. got chauffer.sometimes double decker. thn they jus stare at me. is that joke realy so hard to understand? argh.i dunoe how am i supposed to carry onto the nxt yr. and i hope my timetable nxt yr allows me to interact more with the SBs n ppl i can click with. theres like so much i wanna say abt how unbearable my class is. thats why i'd rather hang out with my secondary sch friends n my hockey goons. at least we are on the same frequency.
a new life begins. another ends. for every life that is taken away. one more is created.
i may not show it. i may not look like it. but seriously im hurting inside. a smile is all but an apparel, how can i show what i really feel. when theres no one that can understand me. i'd jus hav to think it through myself. sometimes jus silently walking with someone is better than having to sit through all this pain. i guess thats the disadvantage of not showin what i feel. others wuldnt know i am sad/happy/etc. i guess im someone who greatly appreciates silence. weird. but silence is a good thing.
no more to comment. wads said is said. its wad u've not done. i shouldnt be too nice most of the time. ok.shall change.
