TRAINING WAS FREAKING TIRING! i am like jus sitting ard on the chair refusing to move n do anything. it was like everyone was scolding n shouting 'fuck' 'pain la' 'ganesh down arr down' & many more when we were doin the multiple set thingy and we had to do like 30 push-ups 40 situps and the leg-raisers la where our leg is 45degrees for 2 sets la. and like we were all screaming out freaking lungs out cos it was so freaking painful for my legs! before we did that we ran the usual 400s and the half-squat n raising the hockey stick thing. my legs are killing me. and the tension was seriously damn high. everyone was pissed with some stuff and i guess we jus exploded la. all like shouting/disagreeing/scolding alot alot of bad words out loud la. in a way everthing that happened today was kinda an explosion of all the feelings that were bottled up for so long. our late-comings, unseriousness, excuses and taking the team as shit etc jus really kept the flame going. hopefully we'd all work as a team n stuff nw. isnt it all abt responsibility? i do admit that it was really tiring and frustrating and at that moment i wanted to shout n jus speak my mind, but being me i kept silent as everyone shouted/scolded bad words and stuff. seriously we deserve a wake up call i guess. a pity it had to come now though, when everyone jus had a bad day and we jus have to make it worse at training. Tired Tired TIRED! and tmr got training oso. sigh!
on a happoer note, my school life's really fcuked up. homework one after another. hence with trainings and everything, i have absolutely no time for homework or to study for tests. and phy test just went by, mahts test is coming up, tons of tutorials to be done, I.S. proposal due....argh!!!!! so many things. oh please make the day longer? PLEASE! ha.
though my thoughts are aplenty,so are my words.why cant i seem to open my mouth?why cant i seem to say what i want?you slip right through my fingers,why do i blame myself?should i just release the trail you've left behind,retrace my steps and walk back?because carrying on just puts a cut on a wound.i see what i dont want.just close my eyes,because every moment i open them i see you.i see what you do and i curse myself.why did i have to open my eyes?can i really find the piece of me that wants to talk to you?or let the anger sit right on top of it.because im too angry to say anything i let it go.get out of my life.get out of my mind. can you just stop being so beautiful in my eyes.just stop everything you're doing,and see who i am.im not what you think i am.i am un-important to you.why then are you so important to me?
